today i discovered autism $peaks blocked me on instagram and honestly i am so happy that it happened, in the autistic community (i am autistic incase you didn’t know) this is like a badge of honor. i only have around 400 followers but clearly they hated me so much that they blocked me, being hated has never felt sooooo good before
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on June 22 i saw Dorian Electra in concert, it was so much fun and i was the gayest looking audience member and i didn’t even try, i just went as my gay self. it was so much fun and surprisingly i didn’t lose my voice. i cant wait for them to come back to montreal so i can see them in concert again
today is my 28th birthday which means in 2 years i will be 30, how scary is that? very scary to me to be honest. i had quite the birthday this year i saw my Avô, got a bunch of gifts including new joycons for my switch and a sandwich maker, and Pokémon cards aswell as a vanilla card and starbucks gift card, i got donuts from doughnats and went to angrignon mall and got the new BTS album Proof which is a 3 disc greatest hits album, and i also got the little mermaid soundtrack and i got a radio shoutout for my birthday which is so cool and then i went to walmart and got a toad action figure and uno flip aswell as a carrie underwood cd cry pretty, her new album denim and rhinestones came out today but i couldn’t find it, i also had subway for lunch and thai express for supper then played super mario party with my parents and then crash team racing with my father and now i'm in bed playing lego city undercover, it was very fun
i have an instagram account that is mostly about my stim toys and occasionally my special interests and an account i was following posted a video of their autistic kid having a metldown and i decided to say on my instagram story that it’s not ok to post videos of autistic people having meltdowns and a bunch of “autism moms” sent me angry messages and it made me feel like crap, worst of all no one was there for me when it happened, not my friends not my family NO ONE and then on march 16 around 11:52 pm my mom was feeling dizzy and was acting like she was drink (she was sober) and she fell in the bathroom and hit her head on the heater and was knocked unconscious on the floor, i called 911 and i was super panicked and trying to keep calm, the police were the first responders and one of the officers helped me pack my moms meds and her glasses and phone while the other officer was with my mom until the ambulance arrived and the medics were were there for about 20-30 minutes and then the medics took my mom to the hospital, the ambulance left around 12:30-1 am and i left a message for my uncle to tell him what happened since my grandmother who has severe alzheimer’s lives with him and my mom takes care of her in the day so i called to tell him she might not be there, he called around 5:36 am worried about my mom, then i fell back asleep for about 45 minutes when my dad told me hes picking up my mom and after he left to get her i fell right back asleep until 8:15-8:30 am when my mom got home, her faced was badly bruised and the rest of that day was a blur, i don’t remember much but it must of been bad, i remember my mom thanking me for calling 911 but thats all i really remember from that day, must of been super exhausted well my dad and i barely slept because of the whole thing but i have to admit it was a week i will remember for a long time
November 4: my avô turned 80 which honestly i never thought would happen when she first got diagnosed woth alzheimer’s but i am so glad she made it to 80 (hopefully she will make it to 81). November 5: I had the most awesomest (and nakedest) day today, I made 4 new friends today, thats right i made 4 friends, they are all nudists and we have a lot in common i am so happy. i also worked, and then after my shift i played an old game i love for the pc called Nascar Racers which is based off the cartoon of the same name and yes i played it naked my mood of the day is naked hehehe. also Dorian Electra finally released a music video for their song My Agenda which is my favourite song of theirs and it features pussy riot and village people (yes the same village people that sang YMCA) and the video is the gayest video ever made and i love it so much. also I made a cameo on the Youtube show For The Community which is about the Autistic Community, the episode i had a cameo in talks about Positive Portrayals of autism in the media. i will put the link to the video underneath that post if you are interested in watching it. on September 8 my mom had open heart surgery, it was a success and finished much earlier than it was supposed to it was originally supposed to he 6-8 hours but only took 4, shes doing well and slowly recovering. and september 10 my sibling Scott had top surgery i am so happy for them although i wish there was a way for implant the breasts into someone else aka me because i wish my breasts are bigger but either way i am now officially the sibling with the biggest breasts yay me. i am emotionally drained and honestly its been hard for me to even get out of bed but hopefully soon i will feel better but i am not sure when that will be
i have been going through a long shut down, i had to take a break from talking to most of my friends, not because i wanted to but because talking to people has become too much for me lately and i can’t handle constantly texting everyday, granted it is better than phone calls. i have done some stuff to help cheer myself up like buying cds at thrift shops and buying a blow up pool for myself and i got the courage to order Barbie: The Look cassette because i been wanting that album for a long time, i originally wanted to get the cd so i can rip it to my itunes library but sadly the cd is more rare than the cassette (in most cases the cassettes are harder to find but because its a childrens album parents would by the cassettes as most kids had cassette players not cds, especially in the late 80s and early 90s). i have also ordered 2 other barbie cassettes from etsy and they are both pink and the cassettes originally came with barbies but i was only able to afford the cassettes for now and maybe i will buy the barbies that the cassettes came with since i love music themed dolls (bratz rock angelz was one of my favourite albums as a kid). i also started posting stuff on my master of stims instagram and one of my favourite autistic tiktokers autisticalex followed my instagram and i am still excited about that, i am also hoping to get a computer monitor to play my gamecube on because i love playing older games and i am planning to save up to get every nintendo console because i love older games, i am also going to an lgbt picnic on saturday which i’m excited for hehe and thats all i have to talk about right now, if i have something else i wanna post about later i will make a new post about it 😃
it’s been an eventful few weeks since my last post, on the 12th my sibling and their fiancee came over with their dogs to celebrate my birthday and it was fun. shortly after that I got sick and was unable to do anything for a week, i also did a couple videos for my youtube channel and a few days ago i fell at my grandmothers and i got multiple bruises, they are still very painful. I also started scrapbooking some old photos and poems i have wrote which has been therapeutic for me. its been very eventful for me lately i am hoping things will slow down so I can relax
today is my 27th birthday, i went to the mall and got some dresses, cds, makeup, movies, my parents got me a juicer and a sonic the hedgehog gamecube controller for my switch. they got me a wooden board that has the lyrics to the chorus on the Cyndi Lauper song True Colours. I also Talked to one of my favourite people Pielijah. it was a very great birthday
it’s official i have been on HRT for 3 years, i am so happy about my progress and how different i look then i did 3 years ago 😃 this is me the day i for my first HRT prescription (June 1 2021) this is me 3 years on hrt (June 5 2021) this is a random pic with a chewy in my mouth because i have decided to stop hiding the fact i use chewys
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About meI’m an Intersex born Genderfluid Autistic that also has ADHD, Sensory Processing Disorder, PTSD, amongst other things, this is my blog where I post about my life and my HRT progress
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